i need a new pen.
it’s been a strange set of days:
preoccupied with a new york stranger
enternal sunshine of the spotless mind
i don’t know what the hell is going on in my head. the week wasn’t that bad, in fact, there were one or two highlights, which should have carried me through to this next week. somehow, though, starting yesterday night, my mood turned dark and i haven’t quite been able to shake it since.
usually, when i’m in a bad mood, there is a reason, there’s a catalyst that sets me off. this time, though, i can’t think of what that catalyst was. i’m just crabby and i can’t figure out why.
there are a couple of things that i’ve had on my mind, but it’s hard for me to say that any of those things have brought me down. nonetheless, i’m frustrated.
i don’t know what to say. the thoughts are tumbling around in my head…. i just wish the voices would be silent for a little while….
headache. nausea. constipation or diarrhea. falling heart rate and blood pressure. fatigue, drowsiness and insomnia. irritability. difficulty concentrating. anxiety. depression. increased hunger and caloric intake. increased pleasantness of the taste of sweets. tobacco cravings.
i want to be reckless in love….