i’ve been feeling quite disgusting the last few weeks. totally out of shape and flabby. lethargic and lazy. so this evening, despite my aversion, i went for a run.

it turned out to be a short run.

after about 15 minutes, my legs, not my lungs, were burning. you’d think, given my smoking habit, it might be the other way around, but not so much. i tried to push myself a bit more, but just couldn’t do it. maybe i should have stretched first? well, i feel ok now and we’ll see what kind of pain, if any, i’m in tomorrow.

as a result of this recent loathsome feeling, i’ve committed myself to being more active. i’ve got to exercise more. i’ve got some dumbbells i plan to start using. i’m going to try and do more running, even though i find it distasteful, and will try to fit swimming into my schedule after particular work days.

admittedly, i’ve never been good at sticking to this sort of plan, but we’ll see how it goes. it’ll be a battle, at least to start, overcoming my lethargy.

i could probably stand to change my eating habits a bit, but one thing at a time. plus, it’ll be harder, i think, to eat better than it will be to simply be more active. besides, i don’t think i really eat that badly, though others may think differently.

i might have more motivation if i had a scale with which to measure my progress. that would require spending a little money, but might be worth it if it helped keep me moving forward. i’ll give it some thought.

i’ll keep you posted.