2:49am.  that’s right.  i’m awake; in fact, i never went to sleep.  make no mistake, i tried.  i laid in bed for at least 30 mintues tossing, turning, and yawning, but sleep didn’t come.  this has been happening occasionally for years… since high school.  it doesn’t happen often and it happens less frequently than it used to, still, here i am still awake.

i’m physically tried and have been yawning every ten minutes, or so, but every time i lay down and close my eyes, sleep eludes me.  i’m not sure whether or not it would be easier to cope with if i didn’t know the cause.  it happens when my brain reaches a point where it is constantly working on something.  i’ve had bouts of insomnia to which i couldn’t attribute a cause, i hadn’t a clue what the hell it was my brain was struggling with.  however, that doesn’t happen to be the case this time.

i’m not sure which is worse at this point: not knowing what it is that has put my brain in high gear, or knowing, but not being able to do anything about it….  another yawn and now it’s 3:08am.  i may try closing my eyes again and see what happens.  worse case scenario, i’ll just be right back out here in 15 minutes.

the sun will be up in a few hours and at this point i haven’t a clue how tomorrow will go….  tomorrow, as they say, is another day (though technically today is already tomorrow).  i just hope i’ll be in a brighter mood tomorrow (today).
finally, 3:18 and i’m off for a third attempt at sleep.