it’s 11:45pm and i’ve got a meeting in the morning. early. yet somehow, here i sit. writing and not sleeping. while it is moderately annoying, random bouts of insomnia are something i’ve been dealing with for years. and for reasons that aren’t completely unclear, a dark cloud has developed over me. a cloud i hope to dispatch with some writing.

one of my best friends is leaving the island for greener pastures back on the mainland. i am sad. i’m sad she’s leaving, even though i’m glad she’s potentially found her dream job. it’s good that she knows what she wants to do and has maybe has a chance to do it. admittedly, i’m a bit jealous, though i can’t imagine a job at this point that would compel me to leave this place. maybe it’s because i still don’t know what i want to do. i still don’t have a dream job.

over the years my interests have drifted from temporary hobby to temporary hobby. and while i think i’ve found my calling in politics, i still haven’t a clue what i want to do with any of it.

more directly to the point, in the last year, i’ve seen a string of good friends move away. of course, that’s never fun, and while my pool of good friends in close proximity has now dwindled to its smallest point, i can’t help but think (selfishly) that its going to be a bit more lonely now.

hawaii is a great place and i absolutely feel blessed to be able to live here, this place does have its draw backs. departing friends is just one of them.

still not everything in my life right now is gloomy. there are defnitely brights spots (a certain someone is definitely one of them) and opportunities, however minor, continue to present themselves, which is promising….

it seems i’m rambling a bit, so i think i’ll bring this to a conclusion. who knows, maybe big city life in our nation’s capitol won’t agree with her and she’ll be back in no time. if not, though, i guess i have one more reason to make a trip to DC in the not too distant future.

good luck and know that you’ll be missed. aloha.