i’ve been feeling quite disgusting the last few weeks. totally out of shape and flabby. lethargic and lazy. so this evening, despite my aversion, i went for a run.

it turned out to be a short run.

after about 15 minutes, my legs, not my lungs, were burning. you’d think, given my smoking habit, it might be the other way around, but not so much. i tried to push myself a bit more, but just couldn’t do it. maybe i should have stretched first? well, i feel ok now and we’ll see what kind of pain, if any, i’m in tomorrow.

as a result of this recent loathsome feeling, i’ve committed myself to being more active. i’ve got to exercise more. i’ve got some dumbbells i plan to start using. i’m going to try and do more running, even though i find it distasteful, and will try to fit swimming into my schedule after particular work days.

admittedly, i’ve never been good at sticking to this sort of plan, but we’ll see how it goes. it’ll be a battle, at least to start, overcoming my lethargy.

i could probably stand to change my eating habits a bit, but one thing at a time. plus, it’ll be harder, i think, to eat better than it will be to simply be more active. besides, i don’t think i really eat that badly, though others may think differently.

i might have more motivation if i had a scale with which to measure my progress. that would require spending a little money, but might be worth it if it helped keep me moving forward. i’ll give it some thought.

i’ll keep you posted.

so, yesterday wasn’t the best day for me. admittedly, in the grand scheme of things, it wasn’t so bad, but still, i left working angry, frustrated, and feeling particularly stupid.

i had made a stupid mistake in an email announcement, which in itself isn’t so bad, except it was an email that went out to nearly 18,000 people. to make matters worse, it was a mistake i’ve made before. see… the email system we use for mass mailings defaults to the last message and subject header as the previous email sent, which in this case was a July 4th announcement. so, while the body of the email was about some events taking place this weekend related to health care, the subject invited people to July 4th events.

given my past (crappy) experience with eharmony.com, my current (crappy) experience with match.com, and a recent matchmaking attempt by a friend of mine, i’ve been giving some thought to the differences, the pros and cons, of the two methods of ‘meeting someone.’

on the one hand, being setup by a friend has a certain comfort of trust that paid online services might lack. there’s an assumption that the friend-turned-matchmaker has some insight that could prove quite useful as they look for, actively or otherwise, someone with which to match you. in much the same way you might trust a friend not to mess with you while you’re passed out drunk, you’d probably trust them to at least attempt to match you with someone they know…. then again, i definitely have friends with whom i wouldn’t for a second trust with myself were i to pass out in their presence (good thing that’s never happened).

i’ve had difficult as of late trying to do things that i should be doing. its a bit frustrating and i’m not sure how to break out of the rut. i could be doing any number of worth while things in the evening hours after the work day is finished.

clean my room
read the prince
read the news
read various blogs
write on more worth while topics than this post
exercise

grr….