i went to bed last night a bit earlier than i normally do, because i haven’t been sleeping very well recently.  i fell right to sleep, but was awakened a couple of hours later by a very disturbing dream.

it was disturbing for a couple of reasons.  for one thing, most nights i don’t dream (i mean i know everyone has dreams, but mine usually go unnoticed and unremembered).  what’s more, even when i have dreams i can recall, they never are so vivid and disturbing as to wake me up.  the last time that happened i think i was in elementary school (i still remember bits of the dream).  so that should give you some indication….

last night i dreamed i had tiny, white, crawling bugs under the skin in my fingers and hands and i kept picking them out.  i don’t recall how many i ended up removing, or how long it went on, but it was enough that when i woke up, i immediately felt my hands for scars, or holes.  i felt none, but was unconvinced, so i went to the bathroom and turned the light on.  i spent several minutes going back and forth over my hands with my eyes and fingers, looking for signs of the little bugs.

the dream was so vivid, so realistic that i kept thinking i would find evidence of them under my skin.  it was quite creepy and 10 or 15 minutes passed before i was sure i was bug free and calm enough to go to bed confident i wouldn’t stumble back into that dream.

i don’t generally believe that dreams relate directly to my waking life, but i’m curious what meaning, if any this dream has….  man, it was creepy!