i find i’ve been apologizing a lot lately for my untimely video postings. and here i am doing it again. even though i said i was moving the schedule to tuesdays and fridays, i missed last friday. i didn’t have much to talk about, but could have given updates. the goal should always be not to get off the schedule.

this time, it wasn’t the hot weather that kept me from recording, but rather my mood. i’ve been in a funk the last week, or so, and my motivation to do… well, anything, had been way down. i’m not sure what it is, or if it even matters. depression occasionally creeps in and its hard to be productive when you’re feeling hopeless and helpless.

having struggled with depression for most of my life, i’m familiar with the feelings, and have tools to dig myself out before it goes on for too long. i’ve been through therapy and so don’t have to deal with it on a regular basis anymore, but the flip side, i’ve noticed, is that i don’t notice as quickly as i used to that’s what’s going on.

now that i’ve identified the funk, i can be proactive about lifting myself up out of it. hence the blog post. and there will be a video tomorrow, i promise.

also, i’m a bit frustrated that i’m not adding viewers or subscribers as quickly as i’d like. i’ll be the first to admit i haven’t developed a “program” that would have much appeal beyond those who know me, but that so few of my friends and family have actually subscribed or watch regularly is a bit defeating.

those who do subscribe and watch regularly, don’t interact as much as i’d like….

i know it sounds like i’m complaining (i kinda am) and i’m sorry. i don’t like to bitch just for the sake of bitching. instead, i’ll throw this comment out into the void and see if i get a response; what do you think i can/should do to make my videos more entertaining? what suggestions do you have for getting more people to watch and interact (i.e. comment, respond to content, etc.)?

come on folks, just a little help, please!