the next time you see me, i may be a bit thinner than the last time (though its probably debatable). i had a friend the other day ask me if i’d lost weight. i probably have lost a bit, but only because i’ve more or less stopped eating. it certainly can’t be healthly, but this is what stress does to me: robs me of any appetite. i’ve basically had to force myself to eat anything for about the last week.

why, you might ask?

well, it’s a complicated story comprised largely of my ranting about a crappy situation and stupid people. i don’t know that it’s worth getting into all the little details and all my frustrations, but suffice it to say, i have to, very quickly decided if i’m going to take a job offer i REALLY don’t want to take, or if i take my chances with unemployment.

responsible blah blah blah blah…. shouldn’t be unemployed in this economy blah blah blah….

i’d say all this is causing me to lose my hair as well, but that’s been happening for years and unfortunately can’t be attributed to this most recent crappy chapter of my life. i honestly don’t know that i’ve felt this awful since before i came to hawaii.