the next time you see me, i may be a bit thinner than the last time (though its probably debatable). i had a friend the other day ask me if i’d lost weight. i probably have lost a bit, but only because i’ve more or less stopped eating. it certainly can’t be healthly, but this is what stress does to me: robs me of any appetite. i’ve basically had to force myself to eat anything for about the last week.
why, you might ask?
i’ve posted to my flickr site pictures of the family visit, though to be honest the vast majority of the pictures are just of isis. nobody wants to see pictures of the rest of the fam, right? just the baby who is ADORABLE!
i have a pretty funny video i plan to post here, as well. but its sideways. i have to find a way to rotate the video, otherwise you all will have to tilt your heads to watch it.
…roughly.
i’m having a bit of a hard time focusing my mind (the reasons will become clear) so this post might start slightly jumbled….
the last week, or so, has been great. i had family in town and took all of last week off from work. in itself, a week without work is a pretty great thing, but when i get to spend it in a resort setting with family i don’t see very often, its even better. my dad, stepmom, sister, brother-in-law, and 14-month old niece were all here. i hadn’t seen any of them since last christmas, when my niece was only a few months old. now she’s walking starting to talk and interact. its increadible. admittedly, i know nothing about child development and admit to some bias, but not only is she just about the cutest kid i’ve ever seen, she’s smart as hell. the second bit, at least, can be somewhat confirmed by both my dad and stepmom, both of whom have medical backgrounds and work with kids. yes, she is damn smart.
do people really change? can they?
i have a friend who, in my opinion, is going to do something stupid. while it bothers me that there’s a good chance they’ll end up getting hurt, what bothers me at least just as much is that i get the feeling that this friend also knows its stupid and could possibly get hurt, but is going to go ahead anyway. personally, i just don’t get it. then again….
i have yet another friend who has some pretty serious self-esteem issues. i think they know it, but are in such serious denial that a part of them won’t even admit it to themselves. they want to believe the world is bright and cheery and life is good. they want to believe it so badly that any thought or feeling that deviates from that belief is shouted down by effective distractions (details aren’t necessary). people have tried to talk to this friend, including myself, but they just won’t listen. in fact, they’re quite deft at deflecting the conversation entirely.