for years, i’ve come across people, friends, family, etc. who’ve thought i might be gay. some have asked (my parents). other have simply assumed that to be the case. i used to bother me; what about me makes some draw that conclusion? sure i have no luck with girls, haven’t had a date or girlfriend for years, but gay? when my stepfather asked me, in a roundabout fashion, whether i was gay, i was surprised, but not shocked. it seems to me i’m just about as atypical of a male as one could be. so it isn’t totally unrealistic for people to make that assumption.

as i’ve gotten older, that perception bothers me less and less. depending on the circumstances and unless some one flat out asks me, i let people make whatever assumption they like….

hurray!

it only makes sense, right?

it might seem a bit late to be writing a post of this nature, but to be honest, i started writing this post weeks ago. i tried to complete it twice since then and this is my third attempt. yes, i’ve completely started over….

its hard to sit here and write about the whole year; january 1, 2008 seems like such a long time ago and yet the time’s gone so fast. what’s more, its hard to recall much before mid-november, when my life and the lives of so many in my office were tossed up in the air.

its funny how a new year always makes us look back and reflect, reflect on the last year, and on our whole life. i may not seem it on the surface, but i’m truly sentimental. some people spend their lives looking forward; i’ve spent most of mine looking back. and so here we are at the end of yet another year and i’m forced to, yet again look back.

i have a hard time saying it was a good year, given my current circumstance and all that’s happened in the last month and a half. even knowing that, all in all, it was a pretty good year does little to affect my mood, which is dark.

in sitting for a moment and thinking, it seems to me the year can be summarized in a handful of events.